LOTUS POND
  • Home
  • Schedule
    • Classes
    • Events, Trainings & Workshops >
      • Events & Workshops
      • Teacher Training Courses (YACEP)
  • Teacher Training
    • 200 hour YTT
    • 300 Hour YTT
    • Continuing Ed (YACEP)
  • Yoga Retreats
  • Online Offerings
  • About
    • Teachers/Staff
    • Class Descriptions
    • Pricing
    • Contact
  • Lotus Loft

Picture

Heartspace Blog Posts

Grief Regrets

1/5/2021

4 Comments

 
In the book Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach, she quotes Krishnamurti “to pay attention means we care, which means we really love.”
I told my loved one that I loved him every single day, but now I’m feeling that I didn’t give him enough attention.  Did I listen to every word of his stories; did I smile or look bored; did I go outside often enough to see the beautiful work he had done on the garden?
I was often so busy that I failed to stop and appreciate him and the lovely life that we shared. 
The quote continues “By paying attention we let ourselves be touched by life, and our hearts become more open and engaged.” Of course!  Why has it taken most of my life and the loss of my partner to absorb this lesson?  Now my regret turns to disappointment in myself.  So here we have yet another emotion added to the heap! How do I turn this realization into a forward progression rather than falling into the rabbit hole of regret?
Everyone wants to be seen and appreciated.  I believe that this concept alone could soothe and heal most relationship issues.  The most impactful people in my life were those who held a stillness in their gaze upon me.  This stillness created an open channel for love and appreciation. 
In our teacher training program, we have a session of acknowledgement called “Just like me” and in this session we sit for a moment with each co-student as the teacher reads a few lines starting with “just like me”.  The final line reads “just like me this person in simply learning about life”.
RIGHT. 
In grief counseling you are told that the amount of time to process grief varies from person to person.  Likewise, there is no time limit to learning about life.  In fact, just accept that you are NOT going to get everything this time around, in this short life existence of ours.
Our whole existence revolves around learning about life.  This life is our school, our university. 
You don’t go to school because you already know everything, you go to learn, to expand your knowledge of this amazing universe.
The pain that surrounds the loss of a loved one is massive, yet within that experience exists a multitude of hurdles (big and small) that can progress us forward or push us back. With each hurdle we reach a new level of understanding ourselves and others. Can I be as accepting of the emotions that move me forward as well as those that push me back?  Can I give myself time to level out this "sea" of knowledge in hopes of finding calm, soothing waters?
Do you have any regrets?  Maybe you want to spend time with those thoughts and reveal the underlying grace that each of them holds.
4 Comments
Gwen
3/9/2021 03:18:38 pm

Regrets? Yes, but not consuming me. I wish I would have been more loving each day. He knew I loved him, but after 45 years together a lot is taken for granted. We still took time for each other, but there was always room for more hugs, more kisses, more ILU's, etc. Poof, in an instant he was taken from me. I miss him, but I am learning who I am as a solo. He is always with me.

Reply
Val Spies link
4/1/2021 02:36:28 pm

On the surface we wish we had done more (I still think that I should have taken him fruit and iced tea more often when he was working on the yard) but we know that the deeper communication is through our heart messages and those can still continue. 45 years is a lot of ILU's! Sendiing you love and well wishes.

Reply
Simi
8/30/2021 01:06:52 pm

Dear Val, These are such beautiful nuggets of wisdom and had me in tears. Ever since I heard of John, you have been in my thoughts. You were my first Teacher into the true understanding of Yoga. I hold you close to my heart as I continue the practice of Yoga you introduced me to . Much love, Simi

Reply
Val Spies link
8/30/2021 01:50:08 pm

Thank you for your sweet words, Simi. Your kindness reflects the light and love that inspires me every day!

Reply



Leave a Reply.

    Author

     Val Spies, Lotus Pond Yoga Studio Founder.
    ​ 
    When Val suffered a personal loss  and was experiencing grief she discovered that there was a need for resources, a safe space to grieve and connection to a like experienced community. These blogs are a series of reflections on the journey of grief. 
    We hope you find these lessons learned to be helpful and inspiring along your journey.   
    ​

    Archives

    August 2021
    June 2021
    March 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    November 2020

    Categories

    All

    RSS Feed

Home

Yoga Classes

Teacher Training

Events

About

Picture
Picture
Picture
Picture

​Lotus Pond Center for Yoga and Health

6201 Lynn Road, Tampa, FL 33625

+1 (813) 961-3160

  • Home
  • Schedule
    • Classes
    • Events, Trainings & Workshops >
      • Events & Workshops
      • Teacher Training Courses (YACEP)
  • Teacher Training
    • 200 hour YTT
    • 300 Hour YTT
    • Continuing Ed (YACEP)
  • Yoga Retreats
  • Online Offerings
  • About
    • Teachers/Staff
    • Class Descriptions
    • Pricing
    • Contact
  • Lotus Loft